DELECTABLE MIND

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Message to my angel.

I watched you on the monitor…still as morning waters…

No movement

No heartbeat

Just dead existence…

I looked blankly at the screen as I was told you were dead inside me…

I wept.

Because.  I didn’t know how I was going to give you the world that I didn’t experience…

A world without pain…

A world of deserving gifts…

A world without worry or anguish.

I’m afraid I wasn’t ready…

And even though it wasn’t meant, I KNOW I was ready to love you.

In such a short time, you taught me so much…

How to speak positivity, how to surrender to God, how not to worry about the things I have no control of.

And whether you were supposed to be my granted Serenity, or my Prophet filled with good news, I was ready to love you and I’m sorry that you had to leave me so soon.

<3

I came, I saw…I conquered.

I want to write a book one day…dedicated to those types children who struggled/struggle with conformity. The kids who knew/know deep down in their soul that they were different and didn’t/don’t fit it— but they still long for belongingness. 

I also want to dedicate it to the kids who are so different that their own families don’t understand them. The ones who lacked/lack positive reinforcement from their parents to be them…so they venture out of their household seeking validation…

I can relate.

The time when I needed reminders of self esteem and self worth, my mom was addicted to crack/cocaine and my father abused alcohol. My grandmother adopted me when I was 13 and was my guardian, but she couldn’t feed my appetite for self esteem/worth— I don’t think she knew how…

I just want to let people know that diamonds are formed under pressure…without a struggle of some sort, you couldn’t be a great, knowledgeable, open minded person at a later date.

I came, I saw…I conquered.

-Destiny J.

Man on the Moon x Kid Cudi.

The passion to perpetuate knowledge is evident in my thought process..my words, my steps&#8230;
That very same passion is at risk everyday by the ones who attempt to water it down with the liquids of ignorance&#8230;.loud ignorance&#8230;potent ignorance&#8230;
Why is it that the women&#8230;or the people who post pics or stats of guns, alluded objectification (nakedness, etc&#8230;) are allowed to do as they please&#8230;.while the ones who tell tales of the betterment of society are told to do it in moderation??
It saddens me when people tell me to be a feminist in moderation
to be pro-black in moderation
to speak in an open-minded manner in moderation&#8230;
to be&#8230;.ME, in moderation&#8230;
So I ask myself, is there a time and place to be educated? Is there a time and place to display a passion of leadership in an era where people have a passion to conform?
&#8230;I STILL don&#8217;t know. 
So as they attempt to silence me; I will in fact shut up&#8230;but I will STILL lead the way.

The passion to perpetuate knowledge is evident in my thought process..my words, my steps…

That very same passion is at risk everyday by the ones who attempt to water it down with the liquids of ignorance….loud ignorance…potent ignorance…

Why is it that the women…or the people who post pics or stats of guns, alluded objectification (nakedness, etc…) are allowed to do as they please….while the ones who tell tales of the betterment of society are told to do it in moderation??

It saddens me when people tell me to be a feminist in moderation

to be pro-black in moderation

to speak in an open-minded manner in moderation…

to be….ME, in moderation…

So I ask myself, is there a time and place to be educated? Is there a time and place to display a passion of leadership in an era where people have a passion to conform?

…I STILL don’t know. 

So as they attempt to silence me; I will in fact shut up…but I will STILL lead the way.

cognitivelyblessed:

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s size.. #PhenomenalWoman #MayaAngelou (Taken with Instagram)

cognitivelyblessed:

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s size.. #PhenomenalWoman #MayaAngelou (Taken with Instagram)

Emerging Adulthood.

Emerging Adult: A person from age 18-24..

I remember when I couldn’t WAIT to be 18 when I was younger…to me it meant longer curfew, partying with people that are around the same age as me & FREEDOM…

So far, being 18 has been that plus: Working and going to school, BILLS, more responsibility, more temptation….etc,…

Bittersweet, huh?

Yeah…it is. And I DESPISE it. This age, this transition from childhood to adulthood, is induced with SO much ambiguity, uncertainty and inconsistency that it makes me nauseous. The era of balancing the two things that are so heavily regarded in our society— work and education. I mean, if you’re someone like me who’s self-esteem was mostly predicated on academics (I wasn’t the prettiest, but I damn sure was one of the smartest), money really didn’t/doesn’t mean anything to you—INITIALLY..until you’re bombarded with cell phone bills, actually taking into account the loans you have 2pay back, gas when you purchase a vehicle, hospital bills if something happens to you, etc. In order for one to be a little financially stable, they have to work a part time job; unless they have a full scholarship. But what if you’re an epicurean at heart (lover of the finer things in life), & that money isn’t enough? Do you overwork yourself, being a full time student AND a full time worker…or do you do one or the other; basically being broke & educated or being a breadwinner with no education at the moment ?

YOU are responsible for these decisions. YOU are responsible for your actions…YOU are responsible for yourSELF in this world of almost 7 billion people…

It’s scary, it’s bittersweet as above stated, and most of all, it’s inevitable. It’s kind of a “it is time” type thing..where you either put up or shut the hell up…

One thing I’m learning is to look at the positive parts about this transition before I drown in all the negatives— Besides prayer; It’s the ONLY way that I’m going to get through this thing..

Because no one said that the transition from child hood to adult hood would be a happy one.

My Surprise 21st b.day Photoshoot! 

waiting for the shuttle earlier today ../beautiful boredom 💋

waiting for the shuttle earlier today ../beautiful boredom 💋